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Jamie the Very Worst Missionary

The Very Worst Missionary (feat. Jamie Wright)



On Episode 61 of the #AskSteveAustin Podcast, Steve sits down with Jamie Wright, author of the new bestseller, The Very Worst Missionary: A Memoir or Whatever. *Warning: if you’re a prude, you may want to skip this episode (or it could be exactly what you need). Jamie is the perfect balance of faithful and foul – listen at your own risk

The Very Worst Missionary: A Memoir or Whatever

The Very Worst Missionary: A Memoir or Whatever, began as a blog, to chronical everyday dumbness, hilarious ineptitudes, and downright disasters of a wannabe world-changer who some days would rather just stay in bed. When to her surprise, her blog wins a large and passionate following (including Steve Austin), she begins to see that maybe a “bad” missionary – awkward, doubtful, and bare-butt honest – is exactly what the world and throngs of American do-gooders need.

This book will NOT take “a literary dump on your soul,” like Jamie says is possible. But it WILL, in parts, cause you to throw your head back and belly laugh. In the foreword of this book, here’s what Jen Hatmaker says, “…this broken down world and our busted-up human hearts deserve better than a list of rules and a church that emphasizes fitting in over true belonging.” (Be sure to listen to the entire episode for a chance to win 1 of 3 copies of this fantastic new book!)

Author Jamie Wright is a writer and speaker best known for her snarky faith and lifestyle blog, The Very Worst Missionary. As a passionate advocate for missions reform and humanitarian aid that is sensible, meaningful, and enduring, she has traveled the world sharing her experience with churches, nonprofits, and universities. She procrastinates in Northern California, where she lives with her family, two dumb dogs, and an evil cat. For more information please visit www.theveryworstmissionary.com

Show notes:

  • Support Steve’s Kickstarter for Catching Your Breath, at KickstartMyBook.com
  • Theological shifts
  • Book writing
  • Becoming The Very Worst Missionary
  • Steve’s short-term missions trips
  • The truth about missions agencies
  • Where you come from matters
  • “God will not be swallowed like a pill to cure the herpes of your soul…”
  • Jamie’s experience with mental illness
  • Remaining faithful while having doubts
  • How do we encourage honesty and vulnerability in our children?
  • What is it about the truth that makes people so uncomfortable?
  • For those of us post-Evangelical Christianity, what happened? Did the church change? Did we? Where do we go from here?
  • Jamie’s least-favorite Christianese phrases
  • Do you believe the Church of Jesus Christ is the Hope of the World?
  • How should we respond to people who disagree with us theologically?
  • Why are you still such a passionate follower of Jesus, even though you’re obviously a terrible missionary?
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    • “Gettin’ Our Church On,” by the Drew Hale Band.
    • “Not Crazy,” by Act of Congress ActOfCongressMusic.com

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looking for god in the darkness

Looking for God in the Darkness



Content Warning: In this episode, we talk about suicide, self-harm, and abortion.

Welcome to Episode 58, a special Good Friday episode of The #AskSteveAustin Podcast. If you’re in a hard time, experiencing a dark night of the soul, wondering where on earth God has gone, you are welcome here.

looking for god in the darkness

This episode originally aired on CXMH Podcast for Good Friday 2017, as a way for friends of the show to stand with us in the tension between crucifixion and resurrection, acknowledging that there are parts of our stories that still haven’t been healed. The truth is, at some point, we’ve all found ourselves looking for God in the darkness.

Show Notes:

Let The Darkness Shape You by L.J. Vanier (read by Steve Austin)
We Don’t Talk About This On Good Friday by Sarah Simmons
Trusting Through the Suck by Steve Austin
Pierced By a Song by Rev. Liz Edman
When Jesus Comes Into Our Great Sadness by William Paul Young
The Work of the People by Stephanie Gates
Stigma by Dan from Canada
A Litany for Survival by Audre Lorde (read by Grace Sandra)
Take and Eat by J.J. Landis
Finding God in the Tension by Robert Vore

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Sarah Simmons is a writer, learner and creative mess. She’s been an accidental youth pastor, and helped run a mentoring program for church leaders. She’s in love with redemption, pancakes and fish tacos. (Website) (Twitter)

Abuse, addiction, and a suicide attempt weren’t the end of Steve Austin’s story. Steve is host of the #AskSteveAustin Podcast, an author, speaker, and life coach.. (Website) (Twitter)

Liz Edman is an Episcopal priest, a political strategist, and the author of Queer Virtue: What LGBTQ People Know About Life and Love and How It Can Revitalize Christianity. This year, she created and co-organized Glitter+Ash Wednesday, a project to increase the visibility of progressive, queer-positive Christians. She lives in New York City with her two awesome sons.   (Website) (Facebook) (Twitter)

Paul Young is author of The Shack, Crossroads, Eve, and Lies We Believe about God. (Website) (Twitter)

Stephanie Gates writes, edits, and raises a bunch of kids in Denver, Colorado. (Website)

Grace Sandra is a social & racial justice advocate, wife, mama and a writer of blogs & books. (Website) (Twitter)

JJ Landis is the author of Some Things You Keep: Letting go. Holding on. Growing up., a memoir about growing up after the suicide of her mother. She writes about parenting, marriage, and getting through the day. (Website) (Twitter)

Robert Vore is a writer, speaker, and Suicide Prevention instructor. (Website) (Facebook) (Twitter)